Few more days until "D" day.

Oh Friday I'm so glad to see you...

This will be the last weekend to spend with the hubby before he has to go. I'm starting to get that lump in my throat and that empty feeling too. The other night I felt like somethings caught up to me. I feel like I take alot for granted in life. it really hit me hard. God, Jesus whoever you are has been so good to me. I'm blessed to have my children and husband in my life. Days are fullfilled because of my children. As I drop them off at school and head to work I have this guilt that never goes away. I'm a working mom that wants to provide for my children, but at times I feel like I work so I dont have to deal with them. I know that feeling is not true. But, at times the guilt makes me feel that way.

I have to learn when I'm alone rasing them that I need to have more patients and listen to them more instead if getting upset with them first. It can be hard though, because going through the deployments it can be draining.

Sitting her looking at friends post that are also stationed here with their husbands. I read how negative they most are...and hoping I don't go down that path during this deployement. I need some good people surrending me to get through this one. I find myself on this roller coaster lately I've been happy one min, sad the next, bitter, moody..you name it.

I really do have to stay busy..trips need to be planned.

Work hard play hard

Waiting for that day to get here.

Well as a Army wife that time has come for our 3rd deployement. I sit and think, that this one is going to be easy. I've done two and this one isnt going to be a problem. I know I'm wrong because as a military wife with three girls and work. Something is going to go wrong.
Kelcie my middle child seems to be doing well at school and daycare. She has surprised myself and her dad. But, When dad leaves well things start going wrong. Well she start down that path becasue she dont have that consistancy with her dad coming home each night. Mykaela my oldest will seh be ok this time around. Its seems as they get older they take these deployements are harder. Not just deployements I should say I should say their father not being home everyday..putting them to bed like a dad should do.
Avery is 3 now, so daddy being away then wasnt a problem for her. But, this one I have that feeling it's going to sadden my little one.

We shall see huh?